You just don't know it.

Things have happened, people have come and left, and I don't know if it's just me, but I feel like you're still here.

You're always there, not when I want you to be here, but exactly when I need you here.

I know I may just be sugarcoating everything. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not.

Maybe this is how things are, really.

I don't know. I don't have anything to hold on to.

Everything is unclear.

But hey, as cheezy and stereotypical as it sounds, you'll always have this special place in my heart.

I like how you make me laugh everytime I feel down, and you don't even know it.
I like how you almost always come at the right time.
I like how you make me feel special everytime we get together.
I like how you look at me.
I like the way you laugh.
I like how you opened up to me before.
I like how cinematic our moments always appear.
I like how you make fun of me.
I like seeing you laughing everytime you make fun of me.
I like how you're not concious about the clothes you wear.
I like how you're always ready to listen to me.

I like everything about you. :|

But.. I'm not going to do anything about it. I guess, you'll never know about it either.. UNLESS, fate steps in.

Basta. Haha. Labo ko.

You'll always be special to me. :)

You just won't know it.

Sige lang, dito lang ako.

Super gusto ko lang talaga malabas to. Alam mo yun, ang dami dami kong gustong sabihin pero di ko lang talaga masabi, kasi hindi na necessary pang sabihin or magsalita.

I hate it everytime you say, "Nagkukulang ako" or, "Wala na ko nagawang tama" kasi ansakit sakit para sakin na nafefeel mo yan. I never meant to make you feel that way, kung ako man ung iniisip mong dahilan kung bat ganyan nafefeel mo nung mga oras na yun.

It hurts me more than it's hurting you.

Naiinis ako when you say "naman, ayaw malayo sa akin" "ayaw pa bitawan kamay ko" kasi parang ako lang yung ayaw malayo? I mean, sure, it's true. Ayoko, kasi mahal kita, pero hindi naman sa lahat ng bagay kagaya ng iniisip mo. I'm not trying to make you my world if that's what you're thinking. Kasi pag sinasabi mo yan, I get the feeling na you don't want me around. Parang, "dun ka nga". I know it's not exactly like that, pero parang ganon yung dating sakin.
Sa ngayon, siguro, papabayaan muna kita. Sige lang, have all the fun you want. Do whatever you want. Ayoko na rin magsalita kasi iisipin mo, na mali ka nanaman. Na ikaw nalang palagi ang problema. Please, wag kang mag-isip ng ganon.

Dito lang ako. Wala akong sasabihin, wala akong gagawin. Dito lang ako. :)

I feel like a child feeling jealous over a newborn sibling.

Things are currently weird. I know it's gonna take a lot of hard work, and a lot getting used to, but I know I can do this. :)

I don't have anything against you really. It's just that, it feels weird being around you. Not weird in a way that I don't want to be around you, no, not at all. It's just that a lot has happened, you know. I'm not the type of person who would just shut up and pretend nothing happened. Especially if it's between you and my friends.

But I guess, I'm just too proud. Things are changing, people go back. I want to be friends, I really do. Please just give me more time to let everything sink in.

I have nothing against you, remember that. I think you're more than okay. :)

I was just not ready for this. I got so caught up with what used to be, and now that it's gone and you're back, I'm having a hard time adjusting. I'm sorry. :(

I'm not closing doors. I want to be open about this.

I want to be friends with you. :)

I know it's hard, but I'll try my best. Please bear with me. I sometimes might act weird/offensive, and I'm sorry.

I want to give this another try. :)

Hi, I'm Tin. Want to be friends? :)

First Day -- tamad version

Hi wassap hello world :))

HAHA. Ngayon ay ang aming persday. Wooo nakakapagod ang sked kong mukang ewan. MWF, 7:30AM to 9, tas break tas 10:30 to 12. Tas break ulit tas 4:30-7:30. 7:30 to 7:30 ako sa school wah, nakakapagod swear x.x Tas TTH naman, 1:30 to 6. Buti nga panghapon na yon eh, kundi baka mamatay na ko sa Mapua. :)) HAHA. Pero, on the other hand, maganda ang term na to! Eh kasi:

1. Classmate ko si Kim everyday pala =)) Sorry na. Eee, kaso nga lang baka wala ng miss factor. Di bale, papamiss ako minsan. Hahaha, arte eh no.

2. Kaklase ko ang bibbo kids sa COE!! Nagulat din ako! :> At ang sayaaaa. Kase wala lang. Misko na kayooooo. :

3. Kahit mahaba ang break ko, sabay naman kami ni Kim may pasok sa hapon, eh math pa yon. Di siya tatamarin pumasok kasi pipilitin ko siya. =)) At dahil mahaba break ko, matutulungan ko siyaaa. :>

4. Di ko alam kung bakit pero ang positive ng outlook ko ngayong term. Ayokong tamarin, gusto ko magsipag ganon. Aaat good start naman ako, sa tingin ko. Nagpasa ako ng artwork para sa exhibit na hindi minadali. Ang sarap pala ng feeling :)) Sorry na ah ._.

ONGA PALAAA :> Ako ay mageexhibit. Malapit na. Grabeee eksayted ako super, kasi first exhibit ko to. :)) First ever as in ever. First time din ako naglabas ng printed artwork material in public ng wlang kinalaman sa school work. Nakakaexcite. :)

Punta kayo haaaa. :3

Ok yun lang ako na lame magblog.

Pagod na ko eh. x.x Bukas nalang swear. Pinlit ko lang sarili ko magblog kasi sabi ko, sisipagin nako =)) HEHE. Goodnight :3

Madaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaming madami akong kwento. : Bukas nalang.

♥

Naglalakad papuntang moa.

--: Grabe magcChristmas na.

--: Oo alam mo nalulungkot daw si mama pag ganitong times haha

--: Oh? Bakit?

--: Haha, wala lang yung atmosphere. Yung mga Christmas songs sa mall. Nakakalungkot medyo kaya.

--: Di naman aah?

--: Eee haha. :P

--: Haha, alam mo first time ko magChristmas ng may girlfriend. :)

--: Awwww. :3

--: Eh kasi pag mga ganitong paDecember na, wala na eh. Haha ganun lagi, mga tuwing pagtapos ng birthday ko.

--: Mga november ganon?

--: Hindi basta pagtapos ng birthday ko, kung hindi wala na, malabo na, tas pasko, wala na talaga.

--: Ay pareho tayo!! Hahaha!

--: At first time ko magkagirlfriend ng alam kong tatagal talaga ng isang taon :)

--: isang taon laaang?!

--: Nooo I mean--

--: Hahaha! Joke laaang :3

--: Eeeee I mean ung tatagal talaga. :)

--: Hahaha! First time ko din magkarelationship ng happy period sa Christmas time. :3 Kasi pag Christmas time, labuan times na sakin eh.

--: Period? Anong period?

--: Eeee ung period ng relationship. Masaya. :) First time kong magkarelationship sa Christmas time na happy ako at kami. --Tayo. :)

--: Kala ko period eh. Hahaha may period ka tuwing pasko?

--: Hay nakooo :P


<3

Ako na malandi ang title :)) HAHA. Alt+3 pala ang heart symbol. :)) Kase sa facebook, automatic e. Lolers. =)) Haha.

MAGSISIPAG NA TLGA AKO MAGBLOG SWEAR.

Insignificantly Significant

Man, I can't believe I forgot.

I lost sight of what used to blow me away. I lost track of how amazing You were, and how grand your love for me, for us, is. --and you never stopped loving, even after everything.

You know I used to be this kid who stood in awe of everything about You. I wow-ed at everything you do, I cried at every moment you touched my heart, I was amazed by what You are.

But as I moved further on, I seemed to have become less and less aware of You to the point that I sometimes don't feel you anymore, even if I want to. What happened? You were silent, You were distant, I couldn't reach you anymore.

Maybe I wasn't in the right place anymore. I didn't deserve to either hear from you or feel you. Not anymore. Not like how I used to be.


I came from school earlier. It was just a normal day, except for the fact that I went there only for a meeting. It was fine. I wanted to go out anyway. There wasn't anything out of the ordinary. I walked with a friend on the way, bought a couple of stuff, and finally went home. Nothing special.

When I got home, I was waiting for Kim's text, but I guess he fell asleep or something, haha. So anyway, I went online to check some stuff, and of course to play. None of the usual friends I talk to are online, so I just played RO. I needed to hunt stuff for my wings, lol. Aaaand, Ginnil PM'ed me.

Little did I know, I was about to be blown away.

We talked about how she doesn't seem like a church person, and I told her that it wasn't really about how people see you. Of course it comes in later on, but what really matters is what's between you and God.

It's between you and God.

So, I dunno what came over me. I started talking about this amazing video I once saw at church. The video that made me cry. I was like, "I remember how this made me cry. I remember feeling God touching my heart. I want to share this." And so I did.

I was surprised that someone had uploaded it in youtube already. Good thing! :)

If you want to check it out, here are the links.

IDESCRIBABLE - LOUIE GIGLIO
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5


Yes, it's the Indescribable video. I remember watching this in Jzone. :)

So she watched it.

At the back of my mind, there was a battle of thoughts, as usual. :)) It was like two people were talking.

1: She's watching it, bat di mo din panoorin?

2: Nge, napanood ko na kaya yon.

1: So?

2: So? Edi wala. Alam ko na kaya yon.

1: Masama bang manood ulit?

2: Hindi.. Okfinewhynot.



Aaand I watched it again. For the third time. And it didn't fail to bring me to tears.


HOW COULD I FORGET.

Here I was talking to God like, "I may not be in the right place to talk to You now..." but all this time that I thought that He was silent and distant, He was right there all along.
He wasn't silent. I wasn't listening.
He wasn't distant. I was building a gap between us.
I couldn't feel Him near, because I wasn't sensitive enough.


The world was making me think that because I "this", God loves me less now.

BUT I WAS SO, SO WRONG.

Funny thing is I already knew this. I even remember writing this down in a journal before.
"There is no place that God's grace cannot reach you."--Aoo Felipe

I was so wrong to think less of You. I was lowering You down into my level. I forgot how BIG a God You are. :3
He loves you, period. No more, no less.

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same. You are amazing God. <3

Dito.

Para kanino nga ba ang sulat na to?

Dear you,

Nung umpisa, alam ko dahilan ko kung bat ako napunta dito. At naniniwala naman ako sa sarili ko. Alam ko na hindi lang ito nagkataon. Naniwala ako na dito talaga ako. Pero ba't ngayon, iba na talaga lahat. Hindi ko ginagawang big deal, pero kahit ilang beses ko ideny, nagkakaron talaga ako ng pakiramdam na ayoko na. Gusto ko na munang umalis dito.

Ewan. Kasi siguro,

UNA. Wala akong nabibigay. Sobrang hindi ako nagiging productive dito. Ewan ko kung bakit. Dahil sa mga tao? Dahil hindi ko gusto? Dahil hindi ito ang linya ko? Dahil hindi ako napapasok sa standards na meron siya? Dahil tamad ako? Pero, sa totoo wala rin naman akong ibang pwedeng sisihin kundi sarili ko eh.

PANGALAWA. Sa bawat pag-uusad, feeling ko naiiwan ako. Parang, wow, nagiimprove. Congrats ha. Pero congrats, hindi ako kasali don. Wala akong nagawang ikakaproud ko. Wala talaga. Feeling ko nakaangkas lang ako dito. Di ko alam kung dapat ko pa ba ituloy to eh.

PANGATLO. Sa bawat araw-araw na pinapaniwala ko sarili ko na kaya ko to, di ko to dapat sayangin. Napili ako, hindi ko to dapat sayangin. Hindi lahat ng tao nabibigyan ng ganitong chance.

PANGAPAT. (Medyo off, pero isa to sa mga dahilan) Gusto kong kumilos at mapatunayan sa sarili ko, na aangat ako at kaya kong tumayo, ng hindi gumagalaw sa shadow mo. Hindi ako nagmamayabang. :( Para kasing, gawin mo to gawin mo to, para magsucceed ka dito. Wag ganito, wag ganyan, dapat ganito, dapat ganyan. Parang, hindi ko na makita ang sarili ko. Parang, "kung ano ka, ganon lang dapat yung sayo. Wag mong pilitin baguhin yon dahil lang gusto mong mapasok sa standards ng iba"--sabi mo yan dati diba? Pero kung itutuloy ko, pakiramdam ko, papasok ako ng papasok sa standards mo. NA HINDI KO RIN NAMAN SINASABI NI MASAMA. Sobrang nakakabuti yon, sobra. :( Ang taas taas mo na. Ang layo na ng narating mo. Maraming tumitingala sayo, at isa na ako dun. Pero ayokong maging katulad na katulad mo. Gusto kong gumawa ng sarili kong dadaanan. Gusto kong maranasan yung naranasan mo. Na gumawa ng sariling pangalan. Sariling daan. Feeling ko mali yung nabibigay kong idea sa mga sinasabi ko. :( Pero, ewan ko.

Pero sobrang hindi ko alam kung gusto ko pa ba tumuloy dito. Gusto ko pa, kasi sayang. Pati, kung ito lang rin gugustuhin ko sa buhay, eh, malaking pagkakaiba kung itutuloy ko to, kesa hindi diba?

Pero ang problema, wala dun puso ko.
Parang, gagawin ko to, dahil sayang. Dahil maraming mawawala na chance pag binitawan ko to. Dahil sobrang madidisappoint kita, or at least, yun ang iniisip ko. Na parang, binigyan mo ako ng chance, pero ganito ang nangyayari.

DI KO ALAM. :(

Tama pa ba to? :(
Tutuloy pa ba ko dito?

Last night, I became the most stupid person in the world.

I can be very stupid and immature at times. Like last night. :((I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I was immature, narrow-minded, I was only thinking of myself.

I'm getting tired of being sorry. I'm always messing things up. I want to stop this already. I want to go back to my old self already. :((

I'm tired of getting jealous, I'm tired of paranoia, I'm tired of negativity. I'M TIRED OF BEING SORRY. :((

I want to make things right this time.

I was so consumed with all of these, that I overlooked how much you loved me. I didn't see that all this time, you were trying your best for me. I ignored the fact that you never said anything hurtful when we fight. I disregarded the fact that you were doing everything you could, for us.
ANTANGA KO SOBRA. HOY TIN UMAYOS KA. UMAYOS KA. UMAYOS KA PLEASE! :((((((

Lagi ko naiisip mga negative things, when all I needed to see was right there in front of me. BULAG! T__________T

ARRRRRRRGH.

Siguro kung pwede lang ako lumabas sa sarili ko, sinampal sampal ko na sarili ko. GUMISING KA AT BUKSAN MO MATA MO! WAG KA MAGPAKATANGA HOY! :((

It hurts me seeing you like this. It hurts me when you talk like this.

Ayoko maging ganito. :(

I want to get back to what I was.

Ayokooooooooooooooo na ng ganitoooooooo. :(( Di ko na aantayin mapagod ka pa saken. :(( HINDI NA. I WILL NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES AGAIN. :((

Gusto ko na ako na ulit si baby mooooooooooooooo. Yung dating akoooooooo. :((:((:((

I'M SORRY :((

Simula ngayon, ako na ulit yon. :((

Would you want me when I'm not myself?

Hoy, sino ka ba, bat mo iniinvade buhay ko. Di ikaw si Tin!! Di ikaw si Tin. Umalis ka diyan. :(( Stop ruining my life with your immature, close minded being. Ayoko sa'yo. You'll never win, NEVER. :((

HAY. Dahil di ko na kaya itago sa sarili ko lahat lahat, magbblog ako.

UNANG-UNA. What the heck happened to me? From this very confident, understanding, open-minded girl, I've turned into some paranoid freak. And I hate it. EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT.

Ever since I found out na umeextra pa si [alam mo na un], I started feeling paranoid with almost everything. ANO BA TIN. :)) You're worried about something na wala na. WALA NA.

Ano bang nangyari sakin? I'm dealing with problems that don't even exist. There's nothing to worry about, but I worry.

Honestly, it has been affecting not only my daily life, but relationships around me as well.

Even with you. And I'm sorry. :( I didn't mean to. This isn't me. This really isn't me. :((

I'm getting back up. Babalik ako sa dating Tin. :D I will. Not only for myself, for my friends, for you, and for God. :3

I'm sorry about everything.

I may have turned into this freak, but I love you still.
Tomorrow, I shall be Tin again. :>

Antukin

Hi. Hahaha! Medyo matagal din ako hindi nakapagblog, ewan tinamad ako e. HAHA. Pero dahil binasa ko yung mga blog ko dati, sinipag ako ulit magblog. Soooo. Wala lang. :))

Hmm. Simula na naman ng bagong chapter sa college life ko ngayong term. Bago nanaman sked ko. At medyo nahihirapan ako magudjust sa sched ko, kasi SOBRANG nakakapagod. o.o Orr, baka hindi lang kasi ako healthy, kaya napapagod ako lagi. Hahahaha!

Eh, kasi ba naman, uwian ko every T Th S, 7:30 PM. Eh ayaw ko pa naman ng gabi ung uwi T.T Basta madilim na talaga sa Mapua, feeling ko instantly pagod na ko. Parang, ay madilim na *ching* pagod na ko. Hahaha! Parang may switch yung body ko.

At dahil dun, naging antukin beybi ako. =)) Kung dati, ayaw ko matulog, ngayon, parang suuuper gusto ko na. Dati lagi mabilis ako bumangon, ngayon hindi na, kasi gusto ko pang ifeel yung kama ko. =)) Eee, ewan. Masarap matulog.

Kanina, natulog ako sa FX. Eh ampanget pa naman ng position ko sa FX kanina, kaya nakakairita yung pagtulog ko. Kainis! Hahaha! Tas yung babae sa tabi ko, super peacful matulog eh. Edi siya na. hahaha! Nainis e? :)) Eniweeeey. Pagkagising ko, bumaba ako ng Valley 2 (lugar sa may sucat yan) tas, pumunta na ako ng dentist. Pagdating ko dun, may patient pa si Doc, kaya umupo muna ako at. nagpicture? HAHA.

Sleepyhead -- kakagising ko lang muka akong bangag. =))

Kwentuhan

Sinipag ako magblog, yaaay. :3 HAHA. Wala lang. Nainggit ako kay Sandy kasi ang sipag nya magblog. :)) HAHA. Kaya gusto ko din. :>

Wala lang, kwentuhan tayoo. HAHA. As if naman may nagbabasa nito. hahahaha! Whatever. Baket ba. :p HAHA.

Hmm. Bakasyon namin ngayon. Maraming mga bagay na nangyare. Good, bad, and.. uh. Neutral. Wala. Nothingness. =))

UNA. Naexperience kong maging mayaman for 2 days. As in, yung tipong sobrang yaman mo na, na gumagastos ka para lang maubos pera mo. Woah. HAHA. Sarap ng feeling.
Yung tipong,

"Hala ano bayan, ang dami pang pera. Kailangan pa nating gumastos!"

"Kulang pa tong ginastos natin, gumastos pa tayo!"

"Waaaaa ano bayan may pera parin tayo!"

HAHAHAHA. Nakakatawa pakinggan. Pero totoo. For two days, naexperience ko ang pera ng Mapua Admin. Kumain kami sa King One, eat-all-you-can drink-all-you-can na asian resto. Hot pot resto siya. Sooooooobrang sulit/solve dito lalo kung mahilig ka sa hotpot, or sa mga lutong ganito. Eh, mahilig talaga ako sa soup. :3 Sooo. =P~ Wah, basta promiiiise. 499 per head pero promise talaga. Sa birthday ko, gusto ko kumaen dito. :)) HAHA. So, nagdinner kami nga don. Si Sir Cinco, Sir Meneer + girlfriend niya, Pedyson, Acee, Chete, Eko, Kim(girl haha), Ako, Anj, Dezza. Yan :D Grabeeee. Tapos nakakatuwa kasi kahit ano pwede mo isali dun sa pot. Eh kung mahilig ka sa seafood, edi ganon. Tapos, pag nalagay mo na ung nakalagay sa plate sa pot, papalitan nila right away. =P~ Wooo. Tapos, yung drinks the best. Pwede mo tikman lahat =)) Pagkaubos mo, pde mo palitan. HAHAHA. Fave ko yung lychee green tea :3 Mmm. Haha. Ayon. Promise pag kumain kayo dito, you'll never regret it. AY. Ireregret nyo lang pag pumasok kayo dito ng busog kayo. haha. :p

Part2. Sabi ng Admin, kulang pa daw yung kinain namin. Kulang pa yung ginastos namin na pera. Woah, eh 5k+ na ata nagastos namin non, or 4k+, KULANG PA DAW. okeey. :> Sure. HAHA. So, kumaen kami sa Yellow Cab. Eh, alam nyo naman na lahat ng meron don kaya ayun. Nakakatamad na ikwento. :)) PS. Hindi masarap yung Cashew ice cream. LOL! =))
ANYWAY.Lahat ng to, thanks to Decipher. Kasi ginawa namin yung viewbook ng mapua. Yung 2009. Ayun. Eto daw yung bayad nila samin.

Decipher (De-Say-Fer) -- Design team ng Multimedia Arts and Sciences na inuutusan ng Mapua Admin para gumawa ng mga Mapua-related chuchu para sa kanila.

At kasali ako don. Wala man ako masyado natutulong pa, pero being part of this team is really a blessing. Wala pa ko mapakita siguro sa ngayon na magpapa-wow ng kahit sino, pero, promise, I'll do my best. Para hindi masayang ang perang ginastos nila, at para hindi nasasayang ang mataas na tingin nila sa group/team na ito. ._.

Wala lang. Feeling ko kasi lately, wala akong silbe dito. LOL. Perooo. ERASE. ERASE. ERASE. Nandito ako for a reason, and this is what I wanted from the start. Di ako dapat sumuko. :)

IKALAWA. Mga peding ko pang dapat gawin, na promise gagawin ko.
1. Vector ni mac
2. artwork para sa shell
3. PAPRINT NG GUSTOMONITO SHIRTS. PLEASE GUYS KUMILOS NA TAYO. T.T Makabili lang ng shirts, ayos na.
4. Ayusing LAHAT ng files ko. Natuto nako. Sa sobrang gulo, ung iba nawala na. TSSSS. AT KELANGAN TULOY ULITN ULIT :((
5. Magpalebels. Kahit hanggang lvl 45 lng. Or maabot ko lang si Kim(lab koo) or si Sandy para may kasabay ako. Kasi naman imposibleng maabot namin si Rap kasi nagpauna na siya. HAHA. K.

IKATLO. Trinoma adventure kahapon para sa Graphika Manila. :))Kahapon, pumunta kami sa Trinoma ni kim para bumili ng ticket para sa Graphika Manila. P850 yung student ticket. Medyo mahal, perooo I think it's gonna be worth it. :) Anyway, I had so much fun. Ewan ko, wala kaming masyadong ginawa, but I felt really happy. :D
Dapat, magkikita kami ng 10AM sa SM Manila. Pero >.> 8 na tulog pa siya. HAHA. We ended up meeting at 12. :))

Tapos, nagmrt kami. Kadiri kasi may nagpapasabog ng bomba don every once in a while. AMBAHO. =)) HAHAHAAH. But it was all fun. We couldn't help but laugh ourselves out. Tama ba yon? Haha. Basta, ang saya.

Pagdating namin ng Trinoma, I was already tired. Ang wasted ko na. :)) Magulo na hair ko, ma-eye bags na ko, pawis pawis na. LOL. Tapos, maling sapatos pa sinuot ko kasi umulan. Nabasa! : Ansaket tuloy sa paa. :)) HAHA.

It was just a normal day actually. AY! Tapos nag time-zone kami. Naglaro kami nung parang binggo na pinball. Hahaha. Ang labo nun. Di ko magets. =)) Dalawa lang nilaro namin. Yon chka, Tekken. HAHAHA. Nanalo ako sa Tekken! :> Tas dalawang beses lang siya nanalo. HAHA. Ang saya wala lang. :))

Siryus mode. :3

At the end of the day, it was still you who made me happy. Of everything that we did the whole day, being with you was the best part of it. :)

Kahit nasa time zone, sa taxi, sa trinoma, sa mrt, it was all the same. You being with me made it all worthwhile. :)

IKA-APAT. Soooooooobrang natutuwa talaga ako. :>Alam ko I'm not the perfect person for you to love, or to love you, but you loved me anyway. Kahit na I'm careless at times, hindi ako mukang super model everyday in fact, i'm no model at all, hindi ako ang pinakamagandang babaeng nakilala mo, hindi ako ang pinakaperfect girlfriend na makikilala mo, short-tempered ako, minsan immature ako mag-isip, mabili ako magpaapekto sa ibang tao -- but you never said a single word. You never complained. Natutuwa ako sa small moments na napapatawa kita, na sinasabi mo na natutuwa ka, na napapasmile kita. It's the only way I could ever repay you. Alam ko, kulang pa lahat ng sinabi ko to explain how much you mean to me, pero, there are only three words to describe it. I love you. And I really mean it. :)

Counterpart ng Control Freak

Minsan, naisip ko rin, kung may control freak, meron rin kayang counter part ang control freak? Naiisip rin kaya ng mga control freak na nasasakal sila kasi ang control freak ng mga tao?

Haha. Parang slightly overused na yung word na control freak sa taas ah. Hoho.

Wala lang.

Di ko alam kung counterpart nga ba tawag dun. Or complement ng control freak. Another version? Di ko maexplain. Basta yung tipong, alergic sa control.


Example1 -- Actual

James: Hon, lika na.

Jenny: Hon, ayusin mo yung colar mo, medyo magulo sa likod.

James: Pati ba naman colar ko kinocontrol mo?? Control freak!!

Jenny: Hindi, magulo lang kasi.. Sorry..

James: Hay nako!

Jenny: Hon, may dumi ka sa pisngi, punasan mo.

James: Ano ba naman kanina ka pa!

Woooow concern lang sayo, naging control freak na. :P


Example2 -- Text messages

Hooon, good morning pooo.ü
Recieved 10:05AM
HonQuOh


Hooon, tulog pa ikaaaw? Sleep weell >:D<
Recieved 11:15AM
HonQuOh



Hooon :3 Haha, iloveyou. :3
Recieved 1:00 PM
HonQuOh



Ano ba naman! Tulog pa nga yung tao, ang dami mong text! Napakacontrol freak mo!
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HoNn

Wooow, nilalambing ka lang naging control freak na. Parang wow, "Sorry ah?! Sorry naglambing pa ako!" Lols. :))



Haha. Wala lang, naisip ko na may kasama ring ganito ang kuntrol prik. Nakakasakal rin ba pag bawat galaw mo, may katapat na "Control freak" na itatawag sayo?

Ilang oras na lang.

Ilang oras na lang, totoong umaga na. Sisikat na ang araw. WALA PA AKONG TULOG. O.O Papasok ako sa school ng hindi pa natutulog.

Uh, kinakabahan ako. Kasi first time kong hindi natulog. Dati pag sinasabi ng mga tao na, "Wala pa akong tulog", hindi ako naniniwala. Iniisip ko, wala daw, nakatulog ka parin niyan kahit isa o dalawang oras. Pero possible pala yun. Diredirecho ang gabi ng hindi ka manlang natulog. Inaamin ko, nakakatakot. O.O Kasi lumipas ang gabi ng hindi ka natulog. Takot akong hindi matulog. =))

Hahahahaah! Eh, bakit ba sorry na. For sure, tulog ako sa klase bukas. Or the next day, may sakit ako. Ganun ako eh. Pero, sana naman wala. ._. Sana yung part lang na tulog ako sa klase yung magkatotoo.

Hm. Good morning? XD Hahahaha! Gutom na ko. Parang bago ako umupo dito kakakain ko lang ng dinner. Mamaya kakain na ko ng breakfast. Ugh. ._.

Pero masaya rin na natapos ko yung ginagawa ko :D

Goooo scriptwriting! :))

Rain.

They were hiding from the rain.

"Anong gagawin mo pag may sakit pala ako?"

"Edi dadalin kita sa hospital, aalagaan kita dun!"

"Hinde, pano kung incurable disease pala?"

"Noooo! Edi maglalaslas nalang ako para pareho na tayo. Haha."

"Pero, waag. Ibig sabihin non.. God has better plans for youuu."

They say, it's always hard to erase someone's memory. You should always be careful in letting people into your life, because once they get in, you'll have a hard time erasing the traces they leave behind when they're gone.

I've had my share of losses. I've been hurt, I've been left behind. I know how it feels. I know how hard it is to let go, and to forget.

But then, you came along. You've opened doors I've shut and locked. You've taught my heart to believe in forever, once again.

I know it's a long road ahead, and uncertainty is keeping us as captives.

If God and destiny decides us to part, that's probably the biggest heartbreak I'll ever get.

I don't even want to think about ever losing you. It pains me just thinking about it.

I've grown to love you enough to know that I want you here forever.

KUYA.

Nagiging immature ka. Tin, tumahimik ka na please. PLEASE LANG.

I miss you.

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:((

Immaturity is consuming all of me.

Naiinis ako, seryoso. Naiinis ako sa lahat ng bagay. Naiinis ako sa araw na to. SOBRA. As in kanina ko pa gustong tumakbo. HAHAHA. Takbo? Eh. Tuwing naiinis ako gusto ko gawin yon. Tumakbo ng tumakbo hanggang mapagod ako, tas bibilis ng sooobra yung heartbeat mo tapos pag bumagal na, hindi ka na naiinis.

Kasooo. Wala kasi akong matatakbuhan dito eh. Meron man, yung street namin, kaso muka naman akong ewan nun. =))

HAHAHA.

Pero, seryoso, naiinis talaga ako. Umagang umaga pa lang. Hanggang ngayon, habang tinatype ko to, naiinis parin ako!! ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH. :((

Naiinis ako kasi ayaw akong tigilan ng immaturity ko. Alam ko, wala ako sa lugar para mainis, pero naiinis parin talaga ako!! Siguro, kasi tao lang rin ako. Pero, being human is not an excuse for letting your guard down. Gagamitin mo nalang ba palaging excuse yung "Sorry, tao lang" sa lahat ng kaanuhan mo?

Pumatay ka, "sorry, tao lang."
Nang-rape ka, "sorry, tao lang."
Nangholdup ka, "sorry, tao lang."

Ganon na lang ba yon? Dun na ba natatapos yon sa sorry tao lang?

Mas lalo ako naiinis. Kasi, honestly, I've let my guard down. Inaamin ko talaga. I'm becoming like everybody else. Parang, nawalan ako ng identity. Ganito ako, kasi ganito sila. Ganito ako, kasi magagalit sila. Tapos, paulit ulit kong ginagamit yung excuse na, "sorry, tao lang." Paulit ulit kong binibigyan ng dahilan lahat ng kapalpakan ko, kaya hindi ko mabago bago.

Hoy, lika nga dito. Suntukin mo nga ako nang magising ako. :

Maraming bagay akong nakakalimutan na, at naseset-aside.

Especially You. You who see the depths of my heart and still loves me the same. You, who placed each star in the universe, and yet, you still know them by name. You, who created the huuuge creation before you, from the smallest ant to the farthest galaxy, in just a blink of an eye. You who still have the heart to pay attention every single one of us, despite your greatness. You who loved me, us, first.

Ewan ko kung bakit pati Ikaw na-set aside ko. Immaturity. Pagod na ko, bukas nalang. Hanggang sa bukas ng bukas, hanggang sa wala na. Who am I to act this way.

I'm comming back to You. <3

Kuntrol Priks The Series

Dahil sobrang bumenta sakin ang Kuntrol Priks, masyado akong naaliw, marami ako naisip na kabanata! :)) Gagawin ko nang series ang Kuntrol Priks. :> Wula lang. Haha.

K U N T R O L   P R I K S   I

Kuntrol Priks. Maraming ganyan. Sa tabi, sa harap, sa likod, marami. Siya, ikaw, ako. Lahat tayo ay may karanasan maging kuntrol priks. Isang nagiging dahilan ng pagkakasira ng isang romantikong relasyon, ay ang pagiging isang kuntrol prik.

Tara at pasukin natin ang mundo ng isang kuntrol prik. :>

ISANG ARAW, WEEKEND.

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bhaby_me_pink_maldita21(5/28/2009 11:23:01 AM): hon, sorry kaninang umaga ah.. miz lng kc kta..

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:24:06 AM): ok lng hon.. luv u.. miz u 2

bhaby_me_pink_maldita21(5/28/2009 11:26:01 AM): luv u 2.. hayz. me ggwn pa ko. huhu.

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009

 11:27:09 AM): ano ggwn mo?

bhaby_me_pink_maldita21(5/

28/2009 11:29:12 AM): ung sayment sa accounting..

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:32:21 AM): ah ung itataype nyo?

bhaby_me_pink_maldita21(5/28/2009 11:35:29 AM): uu.. gawin ko muna ha hon.. mwa

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:36:43 AM): ok..

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punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:40:21 AM): hon.. di pa tpos? tgal nmn

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:42:34 AM): tgal nmn..

BUZZ!!

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:45:56 AM): nu b yn.. mas importante pa ba yn kesa sating dlwa?

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009

 11:47:32 AM): hon!!! mas gusto mo pa ba gawin yan kesa makachat ako??

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:49:12 AM): type ka ng type dyan mas mahal mo pa keyboard mo!? wala ka ng oras para sakin!!

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:51:12 AM): huuuy!! hayz. kanino mo ba ipapasa yan? kay Sir Juan. Mas pinapahalagahan mo pa si Sir Juan.. May relasyon kayo noh?!!? Sbihin mo na!!

punkz_not_dead21(5/28/2009 11:53:19 AM): oh ano? di ka makasagot!? di ka makasagot kasi totoo noh? pinagpapalit mo ko sa prof mo, ang sakit sakit...

I k a t l o n g T a g p o : S a b a d o n g G a b i I

"Hon, sorry kanina ha.. Di ko sinasadya.. namiss lang kita.."

"Okay lang hon.. wg mo na isipin un"

"Sige.. Order ka na"

"Hi Mam, Sir, can I take your order?"

"Ah, isa nga pong.."

"Hon, hon, pahiram nga ng cellphone sandali"

"Teka lang hon, isa nga pong spaghetti meal, chka ung chicken."

"Bakit mas inuuna mo pa siya kausapin kesa sakin?! Pare umalis alis ka nga dito!!"

"Hon, sorry umoorder lang.."

"Kinakausap kita diba! Tas di mo ko pinapansin!?"

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"Sorry hon.. sa kanina. Nabigla lang ako.."

"Okay lang yun.. bayaan mo na"

"Tara, hated na kita..”

“Ay, susunduin daw ako ni daddy eh.. Sabay ka nalang samin.”

“Ihahatid nga kita!! Daddy daddy puro nalang daddy! Eh araw araw mo nang kasama yun!!”

“Eh, sabay na nga lang tayo sa kanila..”

“Baket, hindi ba kita kayang ihatid?!?! Puro nalang siya… Di mo manlang naisip ung mararamdaman ko.. Di mo na ba ako mahal??”

K U N T R O L   P R I K S   II

by Sandy

Nabasa niyo na ba yung unang post tungkol sa Kuntrol Priks people? Si Tin Berces po ang may gawa nun. Ayos diba. :> Pwede na siyang scriptwriter, yehes naman. May career agad. Tinatawag kami ni Tin na kuntrol priks ni Rops at Kimmy. Ewanko bakit, eh hindi naman kami ganon. T.T Uh, paranoid, guilty ako don. Ano pa ba, selosa!! MWAHAHA!! Jokes lang people. Medyo lang. ;)) Hoy, OA ka noh. Di pagiging kuntrul priks yun, nagiging tao lang na may nararamdaman!! =(( Yehes, madrama ako :))

Sige, ieexplain ko na:

Kuntrol Priks (Control Freaks) [Kontrol Friks] ‘n. or v. or adj.’ (NOT SURE kung anong type siya. HAHA!!) : 1) Mga control freaks. Common Sense. Hello?! You control every action your partner does. He wants this, you don’t want that so he won’t do it. And if he can’t do what you want, you’ll get angry and whatsoever that really isn’t a big deal to fight for. Stupid control freaks. Joke. 2) CONTROL FREAKSSS!! You make sakal your partner like you know, he can’t breathe if living is with you. GRABE. Like you need to have a permission before you can do those things and these things. And the worst part is that, the answer that you’ll always get is a NO. =)) (kawawa kang bata ka. XD) --- SandyTinpedia :)

Bakit biglang nagkaroon ng word na Kuntrul Priks? Long story. Ikwekwento ko. Fiction lang po mga tao, wag maniniwala sa gawa gawang istorya.

Isang araw may magkarelasyon na sobrang nagmamahalan. As in UBER SUPER MEGADUPER SA ROMANSA. Medyo lang. Tapos to make the long story short. Yung isa sa magkarelasyon, naging control freak. Tapos naghiwalay sila. The End. What a sad sad sad story :( (sus. asa naman na nalungkot ako.)

Ganyan ang storya. As in lahat ng ginagawa nung isa, dapat merong permiso nung isa. Kapag hindi nasunod, patay ka! Away ang abot mo.

Mahirap magkaroon ng karelasyon na ganyan. No offense ha, pero ganon talaga minsan ang tao. Nakakasakal. Hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar, kung anong dapat at hindi dapat na gagawin mo sa relasyon niyo para lang masabing “okay padin kayo”.

Madaming pinagmumulan ang pagiging control freak:

* Minsan sa isang malaking away na lumalaki kasi nagiging big deal ito at hindi na kakalimutan.

*Minsan naman dahil nagloko ka at wala na DAW siyang tiwala sayo.

* Minsan dahil ‘gusto mo lang, bat ba, ito feel ko eh.’.

* Minsan dahil ganito at ganyan. (wala nako maisip. sorry.)

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Nako nako, iba ang CONTROL FREAK sa OVER PROTECTIVE.

Ang control freak, OA. AS IN OA SA OA. Yung tipong, gusto mo lang magcomputer shop kasi wala kang magawa, bored ka. Di ka papayagan kesyo ganyan ganito OR dahil AYAW NIYA. WTH. Tao ka pa ba? =)) Nageenjoy ka tapos siya hindi? TSS.

Over Protective is yung sweet type ng control freak :) LOL. Joke. Ito yung tipong, mararamdaman mong nagaalala lang siya sayo. Concerned siya sayo kaya di ka papayagan. Mararamdaman mong masaya ka padin kasi hindi lahat ng bagay, siya ang humahawak. OO, kelangan mo padin magpaalam and so, pero alam mong iniisip niya lahat bago ka papayagan or hindi. Maiintindihan mo bakit ayaw niya or bakit gusto niya. Odiba.

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Bakit kami tinawag na kuntrul priks nila Kim at Rops? Kasi WALA LANG. Gusto lang nila mangasar kasi daw nagseselos kami kay Abby at Abbe. =)) At kay ibang babae. =P~ Pajoke lang naman yon eh. T.T Masyado niyong sineseryoso. :P Pwedengparanoid or insecure, wag lang kuntrul priks, please. Mahal namin kayo, di kami kuntrul priks. Over protective na feeling kuntrul priks sa sarili lang kami :)

K U N T R O L   P R I K S   II

by Rops

CONTROL FREAK - is a derogatory term for a person who attempts to dictate how everything around them is done. It can also refer to someone with a limited number of things that they want done a specific way; professor of clinical psychology Ralph Saniatan wrote that "Control Freaks are people who care more than you do about something and won't stop at being pushy to get their way."

okay kwento tayo about sa cuntrul priks.. naenganyo ako magsulat dahil kay tin!! who is tin?

tin is the control freak master muahahaha!!

eh base sa definition ko sa unang paragraph ayun basahin ninyo nalang. :)

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hahaha oha. palit agad simcard. look at the time intervals mtgal na ba yon para magpalit ng sim card? KUNTRUL PRIKS!

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san ka nagpunta kagabi?!

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inaya ng friends love. galit ka?

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di.

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di daw galit oh? pero halata naman sa text diba? kapag " k." "nyt." "ah." "?" "o" "ok". ilan lang yan sa mga reply pag galit. hahaha minsan wala pa nga eh. minsan wala pang period talagang pinapahalata na galit

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galit ka eh?

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di. okay lang.

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sorry na love...wait lang may gagawin lang po

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tss magsama kayo ng mga gngwa mo.

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ay sige di ko na gagawin

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tagal mo magreply! pinagloloko mo ba ako? ano ba yang ginagawa mo? pumunta ka samin ngayon na! may kasalanan ka pa sa akin. bumawi ka!

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oha oha ayos.

itutuloy..

K U N T R O L   P R I K S   III

by Rops

katuloy po ito ng una

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