I feel like a child feeling jealous over a newborn sibling.

Things are currently weird. I know it's gonna take a lot of hard work, and a lot getting used to, but I know I can do this. :)

I don't have anything against you really. It's just that, it feels weird being around you. Not weird in a way that I don't want to be around you, no, not at all. It's just that a lot has happened, you know. I'm not the type of person who would just shut up and pretend nothing happened. Especially if it's between you and my friends.

But I guess, I'm just too proud. Things are changing, people go back. I want to be friends, I really do. Please just give me more time to let everything sink in.

I have nothing against you, remember that. I think you're more than okay. :)

I was just not ready for this. I got so caught up with what used to be, and now that it's gone and you're back, I'm having a hard time adjusting. I'm sorry. :(

I'm not closing doors. I want to be open about this.

I want to be friends with you. :)

I know it's hard, but I'll try my best. Please bear with me. I sometimes might act weird/offensive, and I'm sorry.

I want to give this another try. :)

Hi, I'm Tin. Want to be friends? :)

First Day -- tamad version

Hi wassap hello world :))

HAHA. Ngayon ay ang aming persday. Wooo nakakapagod ang sked kong mukang ewan. MWF, 7:30AM to 9, tas break tas 10:30 to 12. Tas break ulit tas 4:30-7:30. 7:30 to 7:30 ako sa school wah, nakakapagod swear x.x Tas TTH naman, 1:30 to 6. Buti nga panghapon na yon eh, kundi baka mamatay na ko sa Mapua. :)) HAHA. Pero, on the other hand, maganda ang term na to! Eh kasi:

1. Classmate ko si Kim everyday pala =)) Sorry na. Eee, kaso nga lang baka wala ng miss factor. Di bale, papamiss ako minsan. Hahaha, arte eh no.

2. Kaklase ko ang bibbo kids sa COE!! Nagulat din ako! :> At ang sayaaaa. Kase wala lang. Misko na kayooooo. :

3. Kahit mahaba ang break ko, sabay naman kami ni Kim may pasok sa hapon, eh math pa yon. Di siya tatamarin pumasok kasi pipilitin ko siya. =)) At dahil mahaba break ko, matutulungan ko siyaaa. :>

4. Di ko alam kung bakit pero ang positive ng outlook ko ngayong term. Ayokong tamarin, gusto ko magsipag ganon. Aaat good start naman ako, sa tingin ko. Nagpasa ako ng artwork para sa exhibit na hindi minadali. Ang sarap pala ng feeling :)) Sorry na ah ._.

ONGA PALAAA :> Ako ay mageexhibit. Malapit na. Grabeee eksayted ako super, kasi first exhibit ko to. :)) First ever as in ever. First time din ako naglabas ng printed artwork material in public ng wlang kinalaman sa school work. Nakakaexcite. :)

Punta kayo haaaa. :3

Ok yun lang ako na lame magblog.

Pagod na ko eh. x.x Bukas nalang swear. Pinlit ko lang sarili ko magblog kasi sabi ko, sisipagin nako =)) HEHE. Goodnight :3

Madaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaming madami akong kwento. : Bukas nalang.

♥

Naglalakad papuntang moa.

--: Grabe magcChristmas na.

--: Oo alam mo nalulungkot daw si mama pag ganitong times haha

--: Oh? Bakit?

--: Haha, wala lang yung atmosphere. Yung mga Christmas songs sa mall. Nakakalungkot medyo kaya.

--: Di naman aah?

--: Eee haha. :P

--: Haha, alam mo first time ko magChristmas ng may girlfriend. :)

--: Awwww. :3

--: Eh kasi pag mga ganitong paDecember na, wala na eh. Haha ganun lagi, mga tuwing pagtapos ng birthday ko.

--: Mga november ganon?

--: Hindi basta pagtapos ng birthday ko, kung hindi wala na, malabo na, tas pasko, wala na talaga.

--: Ay pareho tayo!! Hahaha!

--: At first time ko magkagirlfriend ng alam kong tatagal talaga ng isang taon :)

--: isang taon laaang?!

--: Nooo I mean--

--: Hahaha! Joke laaang :3

--: Eeeee I mean ung tatagal talaga. :)

--: Hahaha! First time ko din magkarelationship ng happy period sa Christmas time. :3 Kasi pag Christmas time, labuan times na sakin eh.

--: Period? Anong period?

--: Eeee ung period ng relationship. Masaya. :) First time kong magkarelationship sa Christmas time na happy ako at kami. --Tayo. :)

--: Kala ko period eh. Hahaha may period ka tuwing pasko?

--: Hay nakooo :P


<3

Ako na malandi ang title :)) HAHA. Alt+3 pala ang heart symbol. :)) Kase sa facebook, automatic e. Lolers. =)) Haha.

MAGSISIPAG NA TLGA AKO MAGBLOG SWEAR.

Insignificantly Significant

Man, I can't believe I forgot.

I lost sight of what used to blow me away. I lost track of how amazing You were, and how grand your love for me, for us, is. --and you never stopped loving, even after everything.

You know I used to be this kid who stood in awe of everything about You. I wow-ed at everything you do, I cried at every moment you touched my heart, I was amazed by what You are.

But as I moved further on, I seemed to have become less and less aware of You to the point that I sometimes don't feel you anymore, even if I want to. What happened? You were silent, You were distant, I couldn't reach you anymore.

Maybe I wasn't in the right place anymore. I didn't deserve to either hear from you or feel you. Not anymore. Not like how I used to be.


I came from school earlier. It was just a normal day, except for the fact that I went there only for a meeting. It was fine. I wanted to go out anyway. There wasn't anything out of the ordinary. I walked with a friend on the way, bought a couple of stuff, and finally went home. Nothing special.

When I got home, I was waiting for Kim's text, but I guess he fell asleep or something, haha. So anyway, I went online to check some stuff, and of course to play. None of the usual friends I talk to are online, so I just played RO. I needed to hunt stuff for my wings, lol. Aaaand, Ginnil PM'ed me.

Little did I know, I was about to be blown away.

We talked about how she doesn't seem like a church person, and I told her that it wasn't really about how people see you. Of course it comes in later on, but what really matters is what's between you and God.

It's between you and God.

So, I dunno what came over me. I started talking about this amazing video I once saw at church. The video that made me cry. I was like, "I remember how this made me cry. I remember feeling God touching my heart. I want to share this." And so I did.

I was surprised that someone had uploaded it in youtube already. Good thing! :)

If you want to check it out, here are the links.

IDESCRIBABLE - LOUIE GIGLIO
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5


Yes, it's the Indescribable video. I remember watching this in Jzone. :)

So she watched it.

At the back of my mind, there was a battle of thoughts, as usual. :)) It was like two people were talking.

1: She's watching it, bat di mo din panoorin?

2: Nge, napanood ko na kaya yon.

1: So?

2: So? Edi wala. Alam ko na kaya yon.

1: Masama bang manood ulit?

2: Hindi.. Okfinewhynot.



Aaand I watched it again. For the third time. And it didn't fail to bring me to tears.


HOW COULD I FORGET.

Here I was talking to God like, "I may not be in the right place to talk to You now..." but all this time that I thought that He was silent and distant, He was right there all along.
He wasn't silent. I wasn't listening.
He wasn't distant. I was building a gap between us.
I couldn't feel Him near, because I wasn't sensitive enough.


The world was making me think that because I "this", God loves me less now.

BUT I WAS SO, SO WRONG.

Funny thing is I already knew this. I even remember writing this down in a journal before.
"There is no place that God's grace cannot reach you."--Aoo Felipe

I was so wrong to think less of You. I was lowering You down into my level. I forgot how BIG a God You are. :3
He loves you, period. No more, no less.

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same. You are amazing God. <3